what should i do???

life over here is not good and fun as i expected..
its full of conflict, problems, and so many other stuff..
maybe i would just continue my studies in Form 6 with all my beloved friends.. but hey, i must appreciate what i got now because it wasnt easy to get into the university, i mean matriculation in university.. Alhamdulillah!!!
sometimes i felt sorry to them who does not get into matriculation or university especially for non-bumi.. they got really excellent result but yet did not get any place to the tertiary level..
this is why i need to appreciate what i already have and take care of it very carefully..
the problem is it wasnt easy as i thought, as u though and as anybody thought..
i do not know why i still cant performed here very well..Form 6 is even tougher than matriculation.. why i cant do it??

when madam mimi said we can drop our physics subject, i felt so happy but is that the choice that i have to make.. urrghh.. cannot think of anything.. thinking days and nights, till its already passed the due date..
"congratulations feni!! now u cant do anything.. u cant drop ur physics anymore"
s**t..how terrible it is..
anyway, it already passed and i believe that what goes around comes around.. maybe there is 'hikmah' all over it..

let me tell u about one of my classmate, akmal..
'akmal, aku salute gilerr lar kat kau..seriously'
btw, i have said it to him before..
his thought about his future.. about how his decisions right now can affect his future later..
he's really good and i have to admit that he's clever.. haha..
he decided to drop his phyisics.. and i certainly knew what have been going around on his mind..
he wanted to get good pointer because if he continue taking the physics subject, it will badly affect his pointer..cuz he wanted to get scholarship.. so he need to really take care of his pointer and grades..simple!! haha..

i have thought like that too, but i did not take immediate action on that..
that is why i was so depressed...
anyway, like what i said before, what goes around comes around..
wait, ade kena-mengena ker?? !! haha.. x kisahlah..

credit to justin timberlake, what goes around comes around.. ahaxx..

"Aku sangat inginkan nyawa sebanyak helaian rambut di kepalaku,

kemudian enkau membunuh aku sebanyak helaian rambut itu"

Abdullah Bin Huzafah ra

peace for the world