missing them

salam~

adakah sy masih dgn pegangan hidup sy lg? adakah niat sy masih sama seperti dahulu?

i still remember long time before, when i was convincing my parents on how i really want to do the things that i really love..
i still remember on how happy i was when dealing with the school kids, gave them small advices, gave them the courage, motivates them.. it makes me happy and satisfied.. thinking on how committed i was 'handling' those kids without thinking that i went there to just have fun, to just hanging out with friends, to just happily 'jalan-jalan'.. yes, i wasnt thinking any of that.

i still remember on how excited i was when hearing that i'm gonna visit 'orang asli' community in kelantan.
i still remember how happy i was to hear those fascinating stories from my friend about those 'orang asli kids'..
even without having any friends to accompany me together to go to that trip to kampung orang asli', i didnt really care about that. why? because i wanted to be there not because of friends or just wanted to kill my leisure time, but there was something i can do for that community, serves them, giving them the love and the attention and to tell them that we are all the same (that was on my mind)..

i still remember when i was serving the elders, the kids, that was the time where i think i have been truly committed on my works.. without having the thought of tired, lazy or intentionally to show off to someone (sometimes people do have that kind of feeling..admits guys..lol.) , i felt like waah that is the greatest feeling i've ever had. not thinking about anything but just to make sure everyone get their shares..

i really miss those kind of feelings, those kinds of thought, those kinds of hard work, where we put Allah to be on top of anything. whatever we did, it is because Allah.

but right now, it is slowly started to dissappear.. i'm really scared that it will going to be happen for real.. 
i hope it is just my feeling that is being disturbed by Adam's enemy..


lets muhasabah ourselves again.. when we have the correct 'niyyah', insyaAllah everything will be alright.. insyaAllah we will not to be involved in problems with friends, jealousy, hatred, and ect.

STUFF @ Sk Senai Utama, Johor (5&6 Mac 2011)

salam~
alhamdulillah cgpa sy sem lepas ok.. x sangka jugak.. ingatkn xde harapan dah esp nk major.. hehe.. now, i'm officially majoring in Psychology.. alhamdulillah. then, intending to minoring in IT.. well, i changed my course from  ICT to HS before was not because of i hate ICT.. but my passion is more on the psychology.. huhu..:) still in deep thinking process.. hehe..

banyak benda yg sy belajar masa sem 1 sy kat UIA ni.. yeah the life is difference from what we experienced in the matriculation somehow. bunch of unforgettable moments. joining programs and many more. the first program that i joined in UIA was the Kem Kecemerlangan UPSR at SK Senai, Johor. a program under a club named STUFF (Student Facilitating Front) -cool and fun club-. It was a really cool experience, a really good team, a really awesome kids..

semestinya yg sy paling x boleh lupa adalah adik-adik Sk Senai yg sangat2 baik, sangat2 fun, sangat2 bagus. mereka boleh kata adik2 prtama yg sy ada.. sbb tu sayang lebih-mungkin-... haha..  berangkat dr UIA tengah2 malam. sampai sana dlm pukul 3-4 pagi.. sampai je sekolah tu kami tidur dulu pastu dlm kul 7 camtu siap2, sarapan suma sambil tunggu program bermula..

barisan2 fasilitator

senaman siput dan byk senaman lg. yg ni mcm senaman superman je.. huhu

kemudian, adik2 dibahagikan kpd kumpulan masing2 mengikut fasi yg telah ditentukan. happy sangat sbb dapat sekumpulan adik2 yg sgt best.. seriously best.. rindu sgt dgn adik2 ni..

dianugerahkan sbg kumpulan terbaik~~ hehe.. lalala~ 

kata-kata sayang akak utk adik2 akak :- <3

Nadzmi (Imad)-leader, ketua pengawas, plg berani, plg sempoi, idea dan cara pembentangan dia, pergh kalah bdk U.. huhu.. pahamlah kenapa dia ketua pengawas. :)

Madihah- pengawas jugak ni.. nampak garang tp hati baik.. byk cakap jugak. tak pasif selalu gaduh2 manja ngn imad.. S/u pengawas ngn ketua pengawas..standard ar tu.. haha. selalu keep in touch ngn kakak dia ni.. caya lar~~

abg zack- sgt2 comel.. bijak dan baik mcm adik2 lain jugak. tp sehari je dengan adik ni.. sbb dia kena balik awal :( .. balik awal ke lambat akak tetap sayang awak. hehe :)  moment paling adik ni, bila main permainan saham. bdk2 stuff main game ni pun x macam adik ni.. terpegun kakak faci dia ni tgk..

khairul- bdk ni cool gitu jer style dia.. muka mcm ramai peminat.. hakhak.. senyap yg style cool.. tp diam2 berisi tu..huhu..akak ingat awak brjaya menyelesaikan kertas utk masukkan kepala awk dlm tu. huhu.

muin- adik ni pun comel.. kecik je orangnyer.. dan sangat baik.. muin, akak xkn lupa insyaAllah yg awak pernah belanja akak roti.. thanks muin.

zafirah- pengawas kan? lembut2 awak nmpak jugak lar ketegasan.. kreatif jugak.

batrisya- manis dan lembut jer orangnya. adik ni kreatif jugak. baik adik ni

syahindah- syahindah plg pendiam dlm group akak. tp baik sgt. diam2 berisi. akak paling happy bila hari kedua program, syahindah sendiri yg volunteer nk pergi bercakap kat depan semua orang. akak sangat2 happy waktu tu sbb awak sebelum ni diam sgt, sbb malu kot..

halini- adik ni baik.. kecik jgk orgnyer.. halini suka sgt nk duduk sebelah akak kn smpai berebut2 dengan lain2. halini lepas ni kena sentiasa bersemangat dan jgn pedulikan apa org nk kata.. bila kita buat baik dgn org lain, insyaAllah org lain pun akan buat baik dengan kita.

ada seorang lg nama adik yg tertinggal.. akak lupa lar nama adik tu, ada sape2 boleh bantu. dia balik awal sbb ada prtandingn bola sepak.. adik yg handsome, tinggi, baik dan cool~

waktu ni yg plg ingat komen imad, dia kata kakak fasi dia ni sgt2 cool dan sempoi! ehek.. ter-riak jap.. ngee~

sesi LDK ngn adik2 yg sempoi. ^^

model=muin.. idea mereka semata2.. kakak fasi x kreatif bab2 ni tp adik2nya kreatif sgt. nk tgk hasilnya? jeng jeng jeng ^^

berbungkus2 muin ni.. huhu.. siap xleh jalan.. kena angkat..nasib baik ringan jer.. huhu~

lapaaaaarr~~~~ 

salah satu surat yg ditulis oleh adik2 sy~ masih simpan sampai sekarang.. rindu sgt dgn adik2 senai.

sayang suma adik2 yg ikut program senai tu.. terima kasih kerana masih ingat akak dan selalu keep in touch dengan akak walaupun adik2 bukan dlm kumpulan akak.. tahniah dan Good Luck melangkah ke alam sekolah menengah, pastu boleh masuk universiti pulak kan.. amiiin..

dua hari di sk senai amat2 bermakna dan bahagia, wah! hahah.. modul2 pun mantap.. harap2 adik2 kat senai dpt sesuatu dr program ni walaupun sedikit. akak2 dan abg2 fasi amat mengharapkan kejayaan adik2 suma. besarnya harapan kami, lg besar harapan guru2 dan ibubapa adik2.. buat yg terbaik (^_^) 

geng2 senai2 (^_^) -ganas gila kakak dorang ni.huhu-

p/s: kat sini first time kenal en. asyraf. sbb dia sy kenal sesuatu yg berharga dlm hidup sy.. terima kasih banyak2. nak tau apa dia? hurm~~  ^^

FINAL EXAM & Sook Kin's born-Day :)

nama saya feni.. err~~~ perlulah kan.. haha.. sekarang ni musim exam.. tp x sebaik yang diharap. mungkin salah sendiri, banyak main, byk sgt tumpu kat bnda2 lain, dan hampir keseluruhan masalah yang sy hadapi sem ni bknnya brpunca dari pelajaran. tu mmg x menunjukkan sesuatu yg baik... ouh x tau la ape nk jd ngn sem ni.. dah la sem prtama dlm hs psychology (insyaAllah). mmg harapan tinggal harapan je lar nk try mintak scholar ker, pinjaman ker.. adoyai.. otousan, okaasan~ gomenasai. hontoni gomenasai~

tgk bdk kat atas ni.. belum pape lg dah give up.. padahal paper x abis lg.. ade 4 lagi tinggal... entahlah, dh xde semangat.. risau yg amat. kita tunggu dan lihat apa kesudahan insan yg brnama feni ni masa dapat result nanti.

okay, bukak cerita lain.. salah satu cara nak release tension, ataupun cuba utk melupakan kerunsingan hati buat seketika adalah dengan memikirkan perkara2 atau peristiwa yg menggembirakan.. berkesan la jgk buat satu jangka waktu. sekarang sy cuba nk recall, ingat balik peristiwa2 yg sy anggap bermakna dan susah nk lupa pada tahun lepas..

mula2 nak cerita mengenai KAMI yang hangout sama2 utk menyambut hari jadi salah seorang kawan sy boleh kata dia sahabat special sy. kenapa special? sbb sy rasa dia pun rasa sy special bg dia.. kahkah.. (mungkin sy ni perasan sikit tp dia sgt baik.. xtipu punya.. haha).. err.. mood ape pulak ni.. haha.. (alamak gambar bawah ni terbuat muka plak, xpe, gmbr zaman dahulu kala)haha

jeng jeng jeng....!!  HO SOOK KIN!! (^_^)

dia lahir 16 okt.. rasanya lar.. haha.. dia antara bdk yg plg pandai kat skolah dulu.. mmg kontra la dgn sy ni.. @.@  karangan bm dia hebat woo.. kdg2 sy selalu kalah ngn dia bm (dah la kdg2, pastu ada selalu plak tu, bukti bm mmg teruk).. hehe.. kenal dia since form 2 kot? kenal rapat waktu kerja sama2 dlm Editorial Board skolah ngn Badminton club. kelas lain2 except for form 2 n 3..

yang bestnya psl dia ni..even dah grad from high school, dia still akan keep in touch ngn kwn2 dia. sy antaranya.. haha.. penah jugak satu hari tu masa sy di cfs, tgh2 tension, frust, ajak dia dgn Tong Wai Yee lepak sama2.. terus hilang stress.. haha.. dan masa befday dia, dia ajak celebrate sekali.. lupa la apa nama tempat tu.. sy makan kek jer.. yang lain2 suma makan bnda2 berat..

ramai yang ikut.. haha.. x silap ada 10 org semuanya.. ada Wai Yee, Melissa, Poh Yee, Miou Ching, Li Wen, Jian Yi, Mei Kei, Viview.. tu je kot.. hehe.. :)

kek.. nyum! 

wai yee feed me like i'm a baby..err.. haha

love them all (^_^)

i am reserved until D-day had come.. hikhik...insyaAllah..

may OUR friendship will lasts forever <3