Saturday, November 21, 2009

idol ; padang ; me

salam..
at last i've given the chance, the right time to post a new blog..
i will be considered as lying if i said i dont have time.. that was the popular statement when someone is unable to do or complete his/her work.. well, we think that we dont have enough time but actually we do have it.. but we dont know how to find it and use it wisely.. i'm kind of that person..i admit i do not know how to manage my time and always complain about it.. hurmm..

wani, one of the person that will be highlighted in this post..
dia la yg sibuk kritik blog ni.. x up-to-date lar and so whatever.. yes, i admit.. memang dah lama gilerr x update blog.. well, i'm not kind of person yg suka bab2 writing ni.. hehe.. okay, just for u and because of u wani i update this blog..
semate-mate untuk mu..LOL.. haha..

beberapa minggu kebelakangan ni amatlah byk perkara baru yg berlaku.. yelar, mana tak nya.. this is the first post since sem 2 started about a months ago.. memang banyak perkara yg berlaku dan hampir sukar untuk diceritakan kat sini.. boleh jer nak cerita, tp perasaan malas tu lebih menguasai diri.. huhu.. laen kali jer lar cite.. hihi..

erm.. actually i want to tell u about my experience met abg andre last week..
that time i was with my cousin and sis at mid valley 9.30 pm (sumting like dat)... finding stuff at mph.. almost closed but i managed to find things that i want..
nasib baik cousin sy yg setahun lebih tua tu sudi nak temankan gi mid valley naik kereta dia.. haha.. tp mengikut syarat dan terma dia, i have to 'top up' his petrol.. suka-suki dia jer arn.. bajet sy ni loaded ker ape.. tp setelah berjaya tipu and pujuk dia..yay~~ape lagi berbondong2 lar gi mid valley..

then, balik tu..dia suruh singgah rumah dia dulu.. time tu dah pukul 11.30 mlm camtu.. ingat x nak pergi, tp bila pikir2 yg sy dah x jumpa pakcik and makcik saudara a.k.a mak dan bapak angkat selama sebulan..apa salahnya jenguk diaorang kan..
masa sampai rumah tu, terkejut gilerr yg teramat bila nampak abg andre depan mata.. rasa cam nak peluk jer.. kah kah kah.. i admit i minat dia.. just admire him.. tp pernah berangan nak kahwin dgn dia jugak kowt.. hahaha.. LAME~~..
BUT! umur dia dah 28 tahun lar.. lagipun dia tu keluarga sy.. berangan jer lebih..:P

he is like my idol.. i admire him for his work and others.. he almost finishing his pHD dlm masa terdekat ni.. he always go for global conferences and meeting.. for example, representative for indonesia in PBB conference and many others.. he has achieved so many great things although he is just at this young age...
he is such a good speaker and great motivater..so that is why he's always being sent to be a part of work which involving other countries around the globe..
and that's why i admired him so much.. i'd like to make him as my idol..

sy dgn keluarga cousin sy mmg excited glerr nak dengar cerita dia kat padang mase gempa bumi tu.. kebetulan pada hari berlakunya gempa bumi tu dia ada di padang.. macam2 cerita lar yg dia cerita kat kitaorang.. memang Allah nak tunjukkan kekuasaan-Nya kat umat manusia ni.. abg andre kata memang nampak yg gempa bumi ni pilih2 rumah atau kawasan.. petempatan org2 cina semua musnah lagi2 tokong diaorang tu..masjid x runtuh tp rumah2 sekeliling tu semua runtuh..mcm peristiwa yg kita dgr mase tsunami dulu.. yg paling tragik apabila dianggarkan seramai 300 org penduduk kampung lenyap ditelan bumi.. dua kampung hilang dr pandangan mata.. abg andre ckp mase tu sedang diadakan 3 buah pesta perkahwinan rasanya kat kampung tu.. lepas tu ada jugak mangsa2 yg minta dipotong kaki atau tangannya untuk lepaskan diri dr runtuhan2 batu.. orang yg memotong tu memang x sampai hati nak potong.. tp nak wat camne.. memang dah x larat nak angkut batu2 tu.. nak tunggu kren datang, alamat memang dah x bernyawa dah dorang2 tu.. kesian gler.. actually bantuan2 dr negara lain mcm poland, rusia mmg dah lama sampai kat Padang ..tp akibat kekalutan kat government tu, dorang yg dtg dr jauh tu susah nak teruskan kerja sbb dorang x tau nak start dr mana.. if not mungkin banyak nyawa yg boleh diselamatkan.. memang banyak cerita2 yg mengerikan dan sedih.. ada sebuah sekolah yg runtuh yg dalam tu ada beratus2 pelajar sekolah rendah.. rasanya semua syahid dlm tgh2 menuntut ilmu tu.. Al-Fatihah buat muslimin muslimat yg jd mangsa.. ada juga seorang perempuan ni yg masih hidup setelah empat hari terperangkap dlm runtuhan, dia sempat lagi menghantar sms kepada ibunya yg menyatakan dia maih hidup.. dlm msg dia, dia ckp lebih kurang camni.. 'mama, aku hidup lg.. tolong aku'.. tp msg tu hanya sampai setelah lapan hari peristiwa gempa bumi sbb mmg line x de and susah nak dapat time tu.. bila gerakan penyelamat mencari, perempuan tu berjaya ditemui tp telah meninggal dunia.. mcm2 cerita sedih lagi selain drpd ni..
harap2 benda2 nie boleh dijadikan iktibar kepada kita semua terutamanya sy..


sambung cite lain lak.. hehe..
maybe korunk rasa yg sy tah apa2 cuz menjadikan abg andre sebagai idola atau a person yg dibanggakan.. kenapa x pilih tokoh2 besar macam Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohammad ker, atau Mahatma Ghandi ker, Hitler ker (hehe), Ibnu Sina ker or even Nabi Muhammad S.A.W... Sebelum sy huraikan dgn lebih lanjut, i'm a big fan of Baginda Nabi Muhammad(pbuh).. i mean of course he is an idol..not just for me but for the whole nation of Islam even for the non-muslim too.. we have to be proud of our Prophet because no one can be able to beat him in every aspects esp great and powerful leadership..

RENUNGAN PSIKOLOGI..
tidak salah untuk kita menjadikan sesiapa sahaja sebagai idola kita namun ianya haruslah berlandakan sesuatu yg baik supaya dapat dijadikan pedoman dan iktibar kepada kita..
tidak kisahla sama ada seseorang idola itu merupakan tokoh yg besar dan menyumbangkan jasa yg begitu besar ataupun ianya setakat org biasa tetapi mempunyai pengaruh dan memberi impak yg cukup besar buat diri kita seperti ayah atau ibu kita..
menurut sy, tidak cukup hanya menjadikan tokoh2 besar sebagai idola kita..tetapi biarlah kita juga mempunyai idola terdekat atau yg mempunyai hubungan dengan kita..
seperti ibu bapa, adik-beradik, saudara-mara, cikgu kita sendiri, mahupun kenalan atau rakan kita sendiri..

apabila kita menjadikan hanya mereka2 yg bernama besar sebagai idola kita, ianya agak kurang memberikan impak kepada diri kita..sbb mungkin mereka tidak ada pertalian dgn kita.. mungkin mereka amat memberi kesan terhadap hidup sesorang namun sejauh mana ianya dpt berkekalan dan bertahan lama.. perasaan itu pasti berbeza jika kita menjadikan seseorang yg kita kenal sebagai idola dan pemangkin semangat.. kerana secara mentalitinya, kita pasti akan mengatakan kita boleh lakukan seperti apa yg mereka lakukan.. 'kalau ayah boleh bersusah payah kerja siang malam untuk keluarga, kenapa tidak sy kelak'.. 'klu abg dgn kakak boleh mendapat segulung ijazah, kenapa tidak sy'...'klu pakcik boleh dpt anugerah saintis terbaik, kenapa tidak sy'.. contoh lar..

pada masa yg sama, jikalau kita bermonolog dgn diri kita mengenai idola nama2 besar..
'klu Tun Dr. Mahathir boleh buat Twin Tower, kenapa tidak sy?'.. klu Ibnu Sina boleh memikirkan cara2 untuk bedah org atau mencipta perkakas2 pembedahan, kenapa tidak sy?'.. bila kita memikirkan perkara2 sebegini, kita mungkin merasakan yg hampir mustahil utk kita melakukan perkara2 itu walaupun sebenarnya ianya boleh direalisasikan asalkan kita mempunyai semangat dan jiwa yg kental, pergorbanan yg tinggi, daya usaha yg maksimum dan sebagainya, tidak mustahil yg kita boleh berjaya seperti idola2 kita itu.. namun masa dan redha Allah yg menentukan.... dan bg yg lemah semangat atau semangatnya cepat pudar, mereka pasti berputus asa..

sebab itulah dalam konteks ini kita haruslah bersederhana dan mulakan dari bawah untuk betul2 menjadikan impian kita ebagai kenyataan dan bukannya hanya angan2.. kita patut menjadikan org2 yg terdekat dgn kita sebagai idola kita selain drpd mempunyai idola tokoh2 besar juga.. kerana dr sudut kejiwaan, kita lebih terdorong terhadap sesuatu yg berada dekat dgn hati dan jiwa kita.. apabila kita telah berjaya melaksanakan aim terdekat, then baru kita melangkah untuk menyempurnakan aim terbesar dlm hidup kita..

ermm.. xtau nak ckp lg lar.. feni ni x pandai nak explain dan huraikan sesuatu perkara tu kat org.. agak terbantut penyampaiannya.. huhu.. yg silap2 tu sorry..
x faham leh tanya.. hahaha...


peace for the world

Monday, October 19, 2009

amigo

peristiwa sepanjang minggu ni byk mengajar penulis blog ni.. ntah lar.. maybe i dont realise it.. but i can felt how much it influence my life.. tiba2 rase mcm nak emo jer..haha
that day, i was talking to my ex-senior..nama dia kak zarina.. dia mmg cun.. haha:)
dia ckp ngan feni yg kawan sejati tu mmg wujud..dia ckp camtu sbb dia dah baca blog feni yg first2 tu.. kan dlm blog tu feni kurang yakin adanya creature yg diberi nama sahabat baik or sahabat sejati..
then i told her that its really hard to find a friend that is really really
care about us..
will not complaining of anything about us..
although we have bad attitudes, mengada2, pelik, annoying,
or what so ever yg usually will make others dislike or hate us..
sometimes u felt that already found that 'person'.. and u just believe it..
but somehow, after time is faded, when the friendship is not growing blossom anymore,
u will find the person that u think is ur life, the person u think ur great bff,
it is not that great anymore..
i'm just telling this because..
yeah, of course u love ur friends maybe more than u ever thought..(i always do that)
but u just cant understand..its very complicated..
okay, u have a friend.. then, he/she is very nice to u..
have been so care about u,
always protected u from ur 'enemies',
she/he always be there for u, whenever u need a shoulder to cry on, whenever u need someone to share ur stories, whenever u need a partner to gossip about others, whenever u need someone that can makes u relief after she/he has the same thoughts like u.. a friend that is always be there for u..
how amazing it is if we can get a friend like that.. maybe we will be the luckiest person in the world and the universe.. Alhamdulillah..

but..cuba korunk fikir mcm mane kalau semua bnda yg kita dah cerita kat dia, suma rahsia, suma perkara yg kita x puas hati, or anything.. pokoknya kita percaya lar kat dia.. dia tu bff kita kan..
tp sebenarnya dia x suka.. tp in front of us, she/he pretends that they have no objection at all about that... setuju jer..

kadang2 feni terfikir, boleh x kawan kita tu terima keadaan kita seadanya.. kita ni x cantik ke, or byk ckp ke, or always talking rubbish ker, always telling something that they dont want to know ke, attitude yg mengada2 n yg buat dorang menyampah ker or anything.. can they just accept us without complaining any single words to us..
mmg lar perangai2 tu x elok, tp bukankah kwn kita spatutnya bagi sesuatu yg dpt membina kita ke arah yg lebih baik, yg boleh guide kita.. bukannya makes us more down or feeling uneasy and makes the problems even worse..
ataupun mungkin kwn kita tu x perlu ckp ape2..just terima keadaan kita yg mmg dr dulu perangai camtu.. yg x kesah kita ni jenis mcm mane...
mmg susah nak cari kwn yg mcm tu..
kawan yg betul2 ikhlas tanpa mengharapkan ape2,
kawan yg betul2 ikhlas nak dgr ape saje yg kita nak cakap,
kawan yg betul2 ikhlas without having any intention at all..
erm....

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

a catastrophe moment!!

really a catastrophe moment.. okay2 jokin' guys..
in fact, it was really unexpected and memorable yet a lovely moments..
firstly i want to give some credits to my friends here..
atiqah<3,sathiya<3, sze hean<3
they are really fun to be with.. percayalah..x tipu nyer..huhu^^



peritiwa yg berkenaan berlaku ketika..
that lovely monday..
feni, atiqah, sathiya, n sze hean went to pavilion together..
actually i do not expected that those people will come.. i mean sathiya n sze hean.. they were willing to give some times to us although they had classes and other stuff to do that day..
seriously, i love them..
we all were from different classes when we were in secondary school.. and all of us also came from different 'gangs/groups'.. but that actually made our day really exciting and fun..
makan kat food court dulu..cuz sathiya dah lapar sgt.. dia baru habis kelas.. kesian dia...for the rest of us, we took it as a 'branch'..or is it brench?
hurm.. suddenly all the vocabs dissapeared from my head..
like usual, we were the only one yg buat bising kat sana..
then, watched movie.. urrghh..'sorority row'!!
i will never watched that movie again..
it was atiqah's fault because she's the one who suggested that movie..
she said "alar, cite bunuh2 biasa jer.."
omg!! she said that.. giler per.. bunuh biasa2?!!..
almost the whole time in the cinema i covered my face with hands..
me n sze hean peluk-ing each other and only us who screamed all the time.. haha.. but sathiya and atiqah were making noise there.. until one guy turned around to see who is the hell that making noise behind him.. hahaha.. kelakarr gler..
mana x nyer.. sathiya kept saying...
"oh no, she's gonna die"
"she's gonna die next"
"no no, not her, that girl will die first"
"confirm she will die first"
"padan muka she die"
i could feel how 'bengang' that guy in front of us..or maybe every single human being in the cinema.. well, i hope not.. mmg kelakar yg teramat time tu..
then, the most funny thing is.. mase first intro cite tu, ade adegan 18 sx..
u noe what, sze hean covered my eyes with her hands.. she didnt let me to see those parts..
oh come one sze hean, i'm already 18 years old darling!! it's legal for me..hahaha..
kitorunk jln2 sampai kaki luka2.. blister sana sini.. nasib baik watsons ade.. haha.
yg paling teruk luka kaki feni ar.. sampai jalan terjungkang-jongket (sorry klu tatabahasa salah) dah lama tinggal BM.. hehe.. sorry..
"MARTABATKAN BAHASA KEBANGSAAN" (^_^)





mmg pengalaman yg teramat best time tu..really cant forget it...
well, honestly we guys also didnt expect our dates gonna be that fun and hilarious..
lepas ni kita ajak ramai2 lepak sama2..
friends forever guys!! luv u guys always and always..

"Barangsiapa yang tidak menyayangi, maka dia tidak akan disayangi"
Riwayat Imam Bukhari, Abu Daud, Tirmidzi dan Nashif


peace for the world